blindfolded freedom

i used to be a power ranger. my mother used to credit God with all my accomplishments. i resented this, of course - sure that the power came from within me and nowhere else -stubborn with ego and pride. and isn't disempowering empowering? like when you patiently bend your will to a child's, even though you, yourself, are terrified of spiders. it's a sort of limited freedom, but a freedom nonetheless. faith, in sort of the same ways: an agreement to make the right choices. yes, you have some choice in the matter, but the authority comes from elsewhere.

or as if someone had already picked out the movie before you go to the rental place.