Monday, October 29, 2007

i feel like

there are a zillion things i could be doing, and yet i do nothing. i still have no job, but i feel like even if i got a job, still i would be doing nothing. it would merely distract me from that fact. i feel like i have limitless potential, that i can do anything but at the very same time i do not feel confident that i can do anything. i have hidden myself away from everyone and everything and now this island has floated so far away from other land that i can't possibly get back, so i'm waiting for a boat, but maybe i forgot to watch for planes and maybe there was a boat or two or three or more but i didn't trust that they would make it to land so i didn't get in and now maybe there are no more boats or planes coming. but there probably will be more boats or planes, but maybe i will keep finding excuses to stay on this island. like even now, i spent days writing this s.o.s in the sand and when the plane comes i'll send them away because i have some fish cooking on a fire and maybe i'll just ask them to come by later.

2 Comments:

Blogger ad nauseam said...

dude, I believe the state of duress you are expressing is the state of being alive. A line from one of KT Tunstall`s songs goes ``we all sail alone, but we can travel side by side.`` As far as I can see, that`s one of the ironies of life...you are alone, with your own experiences and thoughts and actions...but we are social creatures, dependant on the social ties that hold the world together. Despite my best efforts, no one will ever REALLY know what it`s like to be me, to experience the world as I see it. Same for you, and everyone...each experience is individual, but collective in it`s nature. We`re all having these individual experiences and struggling with how to relate them accurately.
I feel like you have described how I see the world too sometimes...just thought I would throw out some of the thoughts that I`d been having about the nature of life and social relations and all that...jazz.
oh, and....no man is an island dude.
;)

Wednesday, October 31, 2007 11:00:00 a.m.  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

i've been feeling like this for awhile.

Saturday, November 24, 2007 9:52:00 p.m.  

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