Learning To Fly

i've many times witnessed the phenomenon of laughter overcome a vessel of musical creativity. i had thought that i had experienced it in the past, thinking it an awkward reaction to barely audible slights of hand, due embarassment when playing in group. but this type of laughter is borne of in-the-moment-musical-creativity, not acute awareness of one's failures.

i do not get so much occasion to play with people in the past. to bounce off each other. to let the instruments speak to each other. and when i do, it is like a baby chick climbing out of its shell, and we fumble and we grasp, and we make progress. but we don't fly. but we're getting closer to the edge. tonight we jumped off the edge. and i giggled spontaneously. i was overcome with laughter. it was joyous. the adrenaline was pumping.

there isn't a moment like it. there are moments that come close. but there isn't a moment like that.

and i should jump off the edge more often.